Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Moving right along.

Okay ladies

So, after I swore to always check on my "real life flesh" friends before all of my "Real live blogger" friends, they seem to have fallen off the face of the earth. Ladies, are you alive? Em has an excuse but what about the rest of you. So, you are pregnant, so? And you and you have two kids and jobs. So! I need you! Guilty yet?

Monday, March 28, 2005

Because I'm lazy

Stolen from Chana:

1. What time did you wake up this morning? 5:45 am
2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Meet the Fockers
4. What is your favorite TV show? CSI Miami, Without a Trace, and Crossing Jordan
5. What did you have for breakfast? a Kellogg Special K Bar
6. Peach yogurt or granola? Granola, I don't do peach
7. What is your favorite cuisine? Italian
8. What foods do you dislike? Raw onions, protein bars
9. What is your favorite crisp flavor? crisp? I guess sour cream and onion
10. What is your favorite CD at the moment? Okay, don't laugh, NOW 17 and 18
11. What kind of car do you drive? 1996 Volkswagon POS
12. Favorite sandwich? Turkey
13. What characteristics do you despise? Rudeness
14. Favorite items of clothing? Jeans
15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? Italy
16. What color is your bathroom? the ugly wallpaper from the previous owners is still up.
17. Favorite brand of clothing? Lerner NY
18. Where would you retire to? Hawaii or Costa Rica
19. Favorite time of the day? 7:00 pm, that's when I have the most energy
20. What was your most memorable birthday? my last one was my best
21. Where were you born? Austin, TX
22. Favorite sport to watch? Football or baseball
23. Who do you least expect to send this back to you? Everyone
24. What book are you reading now? French Women Don't Get Fat by Murielle Guliano
25. What fabric detergent do you use? Tide
26. Coke or Pepsi? Neither, Sprite
27. Are you a morning person or a night owl? Night owl
28. What is your shoe size? 6 to 6 1/2
29. Do you have any pets? we have sort of adopted the cat from across the street
30. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with your friends? no, not yet
31. What did you want to be when you were little? a dancer
32. What are you doing today? working, working, working, blogging, working, working, working

Friday, March 25, 2005

The Date

Driving into work this morning listening to morning talk shows, one station was talking about an email from girl about a really strange first date. The girl said her and this guy really hit it off at a club so she agreed to go out with him. He planned their dated and told her to dress retro for a theme date. She dressed up in her best 80's garb and waiting excited for her date. She was surprised when he showed up in a 1950's comfortable dressed like Fonzie from Happy Days. She thought that was a little strange, but went along with him. He said they were going to some place that ended up being far away (according to people that called in the place was 4-5 hours away). He took her to an old drive-in movie theater. Afterward they went to a sock hop. Then he took her out into the woods to make out (didn't happen). The DJ's thought it might be a joke, but who knows these days.

anyways, it got me to thinking about my worst or weirdest date. Before I started dating my husband I did some online dating. I had been emailing back and forth with this one guy who seemed a little young, but hey I was getting back into the swing of dating after 4 years, so I was pretty open to new "experiences". The fact that he lived with his parents should have been the first clue.

Because we lived on opposite sides of town, we met in a central location. When we got there, I hadn't eaten, but he already had eaten (date, eat? am I that off the dating scene?). I needed to eat, so we went to Jason's Deli. Now, I am a very independent woman and don't expect a man to pay for everything, but he didn't even offer or act like it was strange that he had eaten already. So while I ate, he sat there and stared at me because his social skills were lacking to a degree (a rather large degree). After I ate we played the "What do you want to do?", "I dunno, what do you want to do?" game until I finally realized that if I didn't make some decisions (obviously this man didn't have opinions or a personality for that matter) we were going to sit there all night, doing our own little comedy routine. So we went to a Tapas bar/restaurant that had live music and flamenco dancers.

We happened to run into an old friend of mine that I hadn't seen in like 10 years, so we played some catch up, but I did my best to include my date so he wouldn't feel alienated. Seeing as he couldn't hold a conversation, this proved to be difficult. After a while, I decided to cut my losses and head on home.

The next day I had an email from him. I tried to tell him as nicely as possible that I didn't think we had that much in common, but that he was a nice guy and I wished him luck. I had decided to do online dating because I hadn't dated in so long and had lost myself in my last relationship. Doing online dating helped me to realize what it was I was looking for in a relationship. I told myself when I started it, that I wouldn't waste anyone's time, mine or someone's elses. I had learned from past mistakes to trust my instincts. I tend to give people the benefit of the doubt, but I have really good instincts and they are usually right.

So anyway, I sent him this nice email. A couple of hours later, I have a scathing, nasty email from him where he called me some choice names. When I tried to respond, he had blocked my email. I was shocked! But I guess that he really wasn't mature enough for an adult relationship and I got out in time to not dig deeper into the depths of his crazy.

So what is your worst/weirdest dating experience?

TGIF! Free Condoms Anyone?

TGIF! Gotta love SPAM!!!

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Defensive Driving Cliff Notes Version

I'm taking an online defensive driving course right now to try to dismiss a ticket for following too closely. I know, I know, but I got of easy. He stopped me for speeding, not using my blinker at following too closely. The date of the ticket? 12/28/04. The reason for my space cadet moves? 3 days after Christmas. First day back at work. Duh! Anyways... Taking this course is providing not only a pain in my ass, but some amusement as well. I thought I would share, cuz I'm cool like that.

Defensive Driving Wisdom: (my commententary is bolded)

Never drive on a sidewalk unless you are crossing a sidewalk to enter or leave a driveway or alley. Remember! Pedestrians have the right-of-way on sidewalks. You must stop for pedestrians before crossing a sidewalk. Good to remember. No driving on sidewalks.

In high-density traffic areas, you may sometimes see an entire street, or a few traffic lanes on a street, marked with cones. The cones indicate that a lane or street is being used for something other than the normal purpose. Other than the normal purpose. Such as?

A GREEN light means GO. That's what that means!

A RED light means STOP. That explains a lot.

You must not drive down a road or street marked with a DO NOT ENTER sign. In case you were unclear as to what DO NOT ENTER actually meant.

A red circle with a red line through it always means NO. NO, NO, NO

If you are driving the speed limit, but are still going slower than other traffic, do not drive in the left or "fast" lane. If you are in the "fast" lane, move to the right when another driver is close behind you and wishes to pass. Amen! Can we post this little tidbit on some bill boards?

A general rule of thumb: the speed limit near a school is 15 mph lower than the regular posted speed limit on that road. (Just an interesting little fact that goes along with SLOW CHILDREN.)

If a train is coming, WAIT until it passes before crossing the tracks. Only do this if you value your life!

RIGHT LANE ENDS means that the right lane ends up ahead. Note to self.

Do not drive on a sidewalk, except to cross it at a driveway or alley. See above for reference.

Never drive to the scene of a fire, a collision, or any other disaster just to have a look. (This never would have even occured to me. Sickos.)

Drive as far to the right as possible if a vehicle with one light comes toward you. It could be a bicycle or motorcycle, but it could also be a "one-eyed" vehicle. One eyed Willie!

As you move through another car's blind spot, use your horn or lights to warn the other driver of your presence. This could create a problem don't you think if everyone did this. honk, beep, honk, flash, beep, flash, honk, CRASH!

Adjust your seat so that you are high enough to see the road. If you are still too low, you should use a seat cushion. Do this before putting on your safety belt. Now, I'm short and all, but if you need a car booster seat, you probably shouldn't be driving. (no offense to short people, merely for entertainment value.)

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

This, That, and the other

I'm still here. Been working on a killer project at work and am finally nearing the end. Well at least the part where I present it initially and then most likely have to start over from scratch.

I really don't have much interesting to say. Sorry, Caption Bores A Lot here. But wanted to put something here so that people know I am still alive.

So happy Hump Day folks.

Friday, March 18, 2005

No more Yanky my Wanky

Donger need food. Definitely no more Wanky Yanking.

After managing to not have a single drink all week until last night, I managed to tie one on pretty good. Normally I stick to beer or wine, but last night I went all Sex and The City and had sour apple martinis. 6 of them. 6 Martini = Hangover-tini, technically it's more like hangover-biggie, but let's not split hairs. Split head is what it feels like.

I have lots of productive work that needs doing, but that little "tini" is causing me to bumble and mumble around my office rather than be productive.


Sorry, I'm here. Kind of.

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Brain Fart

Life is good, Life is grand, life's a big, fat rubberband...

Daily photo: Shadows

And the ball rolls on...

Thanks to all of you for your kind words and thoughts. I love my husband very much and it always helps to have empathy from friends to remind me of that. Thanks guys.

So, I'm sure all of you are wondering if I have decided to give up meat. The answer is no, I am just going to eat all things in smaller portions. Weight is relative as is self image. I am struggling to deal with my 30 year old body while still pining for my 21 year old body. Man was I hot back then. Man am I not now. On occasion I do look in the mirror and say, damn, I look good. But those times are few and far between. I know, don't be so hard on myself. I'm working on it.

Part of why I posted that previous post in response to my girls posting their demons, was the message. The message hit me hard. Why are we so hard on ourselves, and so easy on others. We hold ourselves up to a bar that is so hard to reach, while accepting others faults with not a question as to why. In discussing something with a friend last night, I realized just how far I have come in my life in terms of emotional stability and acceptance. I should be proud of that fact and I am, but not to the extent that I should be. Instead I constantly beat myself up about why or how or when I feel things that I feel and whether or not I should be feeling them. I am overly conscious of my thoughts and feelings to a degree that many might think strange. But in the past I just reacted, rather than think about my feelings. I was a constant victim. I am no longer that person. I am prideful and strong to a point that sometimes it hurts me. I have to remind myself that I am not alone in this world. That there are really no unique thoughts or feelings, that someone, somewhere has not had or felt at some point. Why not share with others these demons, rather than face them alone. Together we are stronger than one. Thank you to Tiff, Becky and Bekah for being in the battle field with me as I fight my demons. I hope that I can be of help to you on your battlefields.

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Personal Demons

It seems that I have been living in my own little "woe is me" hole and have lost site of some very important things. It seems that some of my very dear friends are wrestling with some personal demons lately and I have been oblivious to them. And I feel like a horrible friend. First off, I am going to admit something and vow to make a change. I have been reading other people's blogs more than my friends. In what little time I have, I check people's blogs, who although I have made a connection with, I have never meet. These three women above I know personally. I have gone through good times and bad with them. Some more than others, but they are patches in my quilt of life and I have neglected them. And I am truly sorry for that. I vow to put those that matter most to me first and foremost in all that I do.

And with that, I step very timidly into the ring with my own demons...

Breath, I'm scared...

First off let me say that my husband does not really understand this site or the need for me to have it. At this point we have agreed to disagree and have agreed not to argue about it. On occassion he reads it, but very rarely and rarely does he say anything when he does.

So what I have to say is really hard for me to say here as it pertains to him.

Here is my demon. Sometimes I think that my husband and I aren't meant to be together. To put this in some perspective. I'm liberal, he's republican. I'm Jewish/non organized religion, he's very Christian and is finding Christ more and more and basing his life more on Christ. This in an of itself is not a bad thing by any means, but it makes it difficult to find common ground sometimes. We have a lot of the same views on how to raise children (we don't have any yet), but somethings we strongly disagree on. Don't get me wrong, there are a lot of things that we do agree on despite these differences. And we have always said that despite these differences, we know we were meant to be together. We enjoy each other's company a lot. We do have fun together almost all the time. Unfortunatley, I've noticed a lot of those times, we are drinking. Whether that really has anything to do with it, I don't know. We don't date, we don't do romance very often, we don't have serious conversations. Perhaps I am just going through a stage, and sometimes that happens, but I worry the more I find things that we disagree on.

Little things about him have been driving me crazy lately. Things like his only child mentality where he just doesn't pay attention to what he is doing and spills things, or leaves things lying around or forgets to pack things because he thought I was taking care of it. Or the fact that he eats like he is at home when we are at a formal function. I am no etiquette queen, but when I am at a nice function, I bring out my good table manners and use them. He either doesn't have them (which I doubt, I know his mother and know she raised him better) or he just doesn't care.

Before we started dating and were just friends, I used to call my husband Mr. GQ. He was always dressed nice and looking hot. Now that we are married and "comfortable" I can hardly get him to wear anything other than work out pants, T-shirts and soccer sandles. I will be dressed to the nines and he's in soccer sandles. I don't want to be a nag. I don't want to be a bitch. I don't want to be un reasonable. I pride myself on being logical and fair in relationships to the best of my abilities. I also know that I suffer from depression and therefore, my emotions can sometimes control me more than I can control them.

So, in honor of 3 beautiful, brilliant woman that I mentioned above, there is my demon. Facing it head on comes next.

So you say it's your birthday...

No, it's not my Birthday too, and I don't know why that song popped into my head at the exact moment of me having to think up a witty and fun title for this post. I can't explain my crazy, so just deal with it.

I haven't been around here much lately. I haven't even been able to catch up on my must read blogs very often. Life has beena roller coaster of sorts lately and I'm still reeling from the ride.

I'll recap without getting too specific on certain parts. Learn from others lessons and all.
About a month ago, someone very instrumental in my life, moved onto another location and is no longer that large a part of my life. Needless to say, my life has become more difficult due to this change. Enough said...Except that with that change, I have very little time for "extracurricular" activites, if you know what I mean (blog, blog). So I am MIBA (missing in blog action.)

In terms of my personal life, which I share almost wholy with you, I have been feeling overused and under rested. My social life has run rampant for the last 5 months and I'm feeling as though I have been run over by a Mack truck repeatedly. I absolutely love being social. For many years of my life, I either didn't have many friends, or didn't know how to be social. So I am very appreciative of the friends I have now and the engagements that enable me to see them all on a regular basis. This year is a special year as a lot of my friends are turning 30. What this means though is that each and every one of them deserves and blow out party. Of which I have had at least one a month for the last 5 months. Throw into that mix, weddings, moving, anniversaries, housewarming parties, rodeo, etc... and I am partied out. It pains me to even say/type those words, but it is true. I'm done. I need a break that includes a remote control and a mindless movie and lasts about a week.

Throw into that me getting sick last week and it is still hanging on tight. So lighter loads to come soon, I promise. I will be witty and snarky and fun soon. Really, I promise.

In other news, I have started another blog for fitness and health. Leave a comment here or there and I will include you in the mix.

Monday, March 14, 2005

To Meat or not to Eat...Meat

I attended a wedding of a close cousin this weekend and something was brought to my attention. There were a couple women there that were vegetarians. Now, when I was younger, I was somewhat of a vegetarian. Somewhat meaning we ate fish and chicken, but no red meat. Now what I noticed or rather what was brought to mind this weekend is that everyone I know that is a vegetarian is really skinny. And very healthy. Now I know this isn't the post PC reason to become a vegetarian, but in my mind at this moment, vegetarian = skinny, which in turn makes me want to become a vegetarian so that I can = skinny. So the question is, to meat or not to eat meat?

Friday, March 11, 2005

Word association

Todays word association word of the day is:

Sick (cough, cough)

Hope everyone out there feels better than I do!

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Word association

Since I am drowning at work, but I still miss my blog world and getting those wonderful comments, for the next couple of... well, til things settle down, we'll be playing word games here at Bundles of Babbles.

The game for today is, word association, blogstyle. I will give the first word. The first person to comment tells us what the first thing to come to mind is when they read that word. The person after them has to tell us what the first word is that comes to mind when they read the word that the commenter before them left. And so on...

So, the first word is


Your turn.

Friday, March 04, 2005

Emotionally Drunk and Sober

I have been struggling the last couple of days emotionally and finally had a mini break down last night with my husband, magnified by a bottle of wine. I'm fine, just emotionally drained. I've been going non stop socially since about November of last year. And work has been crazy since my boss left. So all day long it's need, need, need at work. Then at home it's need, need, need. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love all my friends and family, but I need me right now. I need down time and not to think. Anyways... the point of my post... As I discussed the basis of my breakdown and the ways in which to fix it, I decided that I would wait to make major decisions until I was emotionally sober. So that's my new phrase, Emotionally Sober.

As of right now, I am still emotinally drunk.

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Blogging Buddies for Fitness

Okay, I have some people interested in the Blogging Buddies for Fitness idea, so here's what I think I'm gonna do. As soon as I have some free time (I'll wait til you stop laughing)... Free time... I will create a new blog called Blogging Buddies for Fitness (BBF). I'm hoping to get as the name... Anyway, I will create a generic username and password and share it with everyone that is interested. That way any of us can post. Comments can be used as well for updates, motivation, etc...

What do you guys think?